Osho - Ancient Music in the Pines
Chapter 8. Three
Mysteries
Question 1: Can
you talk about facing the death of each moment and letting go?
Death is already happening.
Whether you face it or not, whether you look at it or not, it is already there.
It is just like breathing. When
a child is born, he inhales, he breathes in for the first time.
That is the beginning of life.
And when one day he becomes old, dies, he will exhale.
Death always happens with
exhalation and birth with inhalation. But exhalation and inhalation are
happening continuously. With each inhalation you are born; with each exhalation
you die.
So the first thing to
understand is that death is not somewhere in the future, waiting for you, as it
has been always pictured. It is part of life; it is an ongoing process - not in
the future, here, now.
Life and death are two aspects
of existence. simultaneously happening together.
Ordinarily, you have been
taught to think of death as being against life. Death is not against life -
life is not possible without death. Death is the very ground on which life
exists. Death and life are like two wings: the bird cannot fly with one wing,
and the being cannot be without death. So the first thing is a clear
understanding of what we mean by death.
Death is an absolutely
necessary process for life to be. It is not the enemy, it is the friend.
And it is not there somewhere
in the future, it is here, now. It is not going to happen, it has been always
happening. Since you have been here it has been with you. With each exhalation
it happens - a little death, a small death - but because of fear we have put it
in the future.
The mind always tries to avoid
things which it cannot comprehend, and death is one of the most
incomprehensible mysteries. There are only three mysteries: life, death and
love.
All these three are beyond
mind.
So mind takes life for granted;
then there is no need to inquire. That is a way of avoiding.
You never think, you never
meditate on life; you have simply accepted it, taken it for granted. It is a
tremendous mystery. You are alive, but don't think that you have known life.
For death, mind plays another
trick: it postpones it. To accept it here and now would be a constant worry, so
the mind puts it somewhere in the future - then there is no hurry.
When it comes, we will see.
And for love, mind has created
substitutes which are not love. Sometimes you call your possessiveness your
love; sometimes you call your attachment your love; sometimes you call your
domination your love - these are ego games. Love has nothing to do with them.
In fact, because of these
games, love is not possible.
Between life and death, between
the two banks of life and death, flows the river of love.
And that is possible only for a
person who does not take life for granted, who moves deep into the quality of
being alive and becomes existential, authentic. Love is for the person who accepts
death here and now and does not postpone it. Then between these two a beautiful
phenomenon arises: the river of love.
Life and death are like two
banks. The possibility is there for the river of love to flow, but it is only a
possibility. You will have to materialize it. Life and death are there, but
love has to be materialized - that is the goal of being a human. Unless love
materializes, you have missed - you have missed the whole point of being.
Death is already happening - so
don't put it in the future. If you don't put it in the future there is no
question of defending yourself. If it is already happening - and it has been
already happening always - then there is no question of protecting yourself
against death.
Death has not killed you, it
has been happening while you were still alive. It is happening just now and
life is not destroyed by it; in fact, because of it, life renews itself each
moment. When the old leaves fall, they make space for the new leaves to come.
When the old flowers disappear, the new flowers appear. When one door closes,
another immediately opens. Each moment you die and each moment there is
resurrection.
Once a Christian missionary
came to me and he asked, 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ's resurrection?'
I told him that there was no
need to go so far. Each moment everybody is resurrected. But he could not
understand. It is difficult for people who are too much into their ideology.
He said, 'But do you believe
that he was crucified? Is this not just a myth, or is it a reality? What do you
think?'
I said to him again that
everybody is crucified every moment. That is the whole meaning of Jesus'
crucifixion and his resurrection. Whether it is historical or not does not
matter a bit. It is simply irrelevant to think whether it happened or not - it
is HAPPENING.
Each moment the past is
crucified, the old leaves disappear. And each moment a new being arises in you,
resurrects. It is a constant miracle.
The second thing to understand
about death is that death is the only certainty. Everything else is uncertain:
it may happen, it may not happen. Death is certain because in birth half of it
has already happened, so the other end must be somewhere, the other pole must
be somewhere in the dark. You have not come across it because you are afraid;
you don't move in the dark. But it is certain! With birth, death has become a
certainty.
Once this certainty penetrates
your understanding, you are relaxed. Whenever something is absolutely certain
then there is no worry. Worry arises out of uncertainty.
Watch. A man is dying and he is
very worried. The moment death becomes certain and the doctors say, 'Now you
cannot be saved,' he is shocked. A shivering goes through his being. But then
things settle, and immediately all worries disappear. If the person is allowed
to know that he is going to die and that death is certain, with that certainty
a peace a silence, comes to his being.
Every person who is dying has
the right to know it. Doctors go on hiding it many times, thinking, 'Why
disturb?' But uncertainty disturbs; certainty, never. This hanging in- between,
this being in limbo, wondering whether one is going to live or die - this is
the root cause of all worry. Once it is certain that you are going to die then
there is nothing to do. Then one simply accepts it. And in that acceptance, a
calmness, a tranquillity happens. So if the person is allowed to know that he
is going to die in the moment of death he becomes peaceful.
In the East we have been
practicing that for millennia. Not only that, in countries like Tibet
particular techniques were evolved to help a man to die. They called it BARDO
TODO. When a person was dying, friends, relatives and acquaintances would
gather together around him to give him the absolute certainty that he was going
to die, and to help him to relax.
Because if you can die in total
relaxation, the quality of death changes and your new birth somewhere will be
of a higher quality. The quality of birth is decided by death. And then, in
turn, the quality of birth will decide the quality of another death. That's how
one goes higher and higher, that's how one evolves. And whenever a person
becomes absolutely certain about death a flame arises on his face - you can see
it. In fact, a miracle happens: he becomes alive as he has never been before.
There is a saying in India that
before a flame dies, it becomes tremendously intense. Just for a moment it
flares up to totality. I was reading a small anecdote.
Once there were two little
worms. The first was lazy and improvident, and always stayed in bed late. The
other was always up early, going about his business. The early bird caught the
early worm. Then along came a fisherman with a flashlight, and caught the night
crawler. Moral: You can't win.
Death is certain. Whatsoever
you do - get up early or not - death is certain. It has already happened,
that's why it is certain; it is already happening, that's why it is certain.
So why wait for the moment when
you are dying on your bed? Why not make it certain right now?
Just watch. If I say death is
certain, can't you feel fear disappearing within you? Can't you feel that with
the very idea - and it is just an idea right now, not your experience - with
just an idea that death is certain, you are calm and quiet. If you can
experience it.... And you can, because it is a fact. I am not talking about
theories; I don't deal in theories. This is a simple fact. Just open your eyes
and watch it. And don't try to avoid it; there is no way to avoid it. In
avoiding, you miss. Accept it. Embrace it. And live with the consciousness that
each moment you die and each moment you are born. Allow it to happen. Don't
cling to the past - it is no more, it is already gone. Why go on carrying dead
things? Why be so burdened with corpses? Drop them. And you will feel weightlessness;
you will feel unburdened.
And once you drop the past the
future drops on its own accord, because the future is nothing but a projection
of the past. In the past you had some pleasures; now the mind projects those
same pleasures into the future. In the past you had some sufferings; now the
mind projects a future in which those sufferings are not allowed to happen.
That's what your future is. What else is your future? Pleasures that you
enjoyed in the past are projected and miseries are dropped. Your future is a
more colorful and modified past, repainted, renovated, but it is the past. Once
the past drops, suddenly the future drops - and then you are left here and now;
then you are in existence, you are existential, and that is the only way to be.
All other ways are just to avoid life. The more you avoid life, the more you
become afraid of death.
A person who is really living
is not in any way afraid of death. If you are living rightly you are finished
with death, you are already too grateful, fulfilled. But if you have not lived,
then the constant worry continues, 'I have not lived yet and death is coming.
And death will stop all; with death there will be no future.' So one becomes
apprehensive, afraid, and tries to avoid death.
In trying to avoid death, one
goes on missing life. Forget about that avoidance. Live life.
In living life, death is
avoided. In living life, you become so fulfilled that if this very moment death
comes and the future stops, you will be ready. You will be happily ready.
You have lived your life; you
have delighted in existence; you have celebrated it; you are contented. There
is no complaint, no grumbling; you don't have any grudge. You welcome death.
And unless you can welcome death, one thing is certain - you have not lived.
I have heard one anecdote.
Two Hungarian noblemen fell
into a deadly quarrel. But since neither was anxious to risk his life with
either sword or pistol, a bloodless duel was decided upon. Each was to speak a
number, and the one presenting the higher number would be adjudged the winner.
The seconds were of course at
hand, and the excitement and suspense were extreme as the two noblemen, seated
at opposite ends of a long table, bent to the task of thinking of a high
number. The challenged party who had the privilege of going first. thought long
and hard. The veins on his temples swelled, and the perspiration stood out on
his forehead.
'Three,' he said finally.
The other duelist said at once,
'Well, that beats me.'
When you are afraid of death
even the number three is the ultimate. When you are afraid of death you go on
finding excuses for how to go on living. Whether your life means anything or
not one simply goes on finding excuses to prolong it.
In the West now, there is a
craze about how to prolong life. That simply shows that somewhere life is being
missed. Whenever a country or a culture - starts thinking about how to prolong
life, it simply shows one thing - that life is not being lived. If you live
life, then even a single moment is enough. A single moment can be equal to
eternity. It is not a question of length, it is a question of depth; it is not
a question of quantity, it is a question of quality.
Just think: would you like one
moment of Buddha's life or would you like a thousand years of your own life?
Then you will be able to understand what I mean about the quality, the
intensity, the depth. In a single moment fulfillment is possible: you can bloom
and blossom. But you may not bloom for one thousand years, you may remain
hiding in the seed.
This is the difference between
the scientific attitude towards life and the religious attitude. The scientific
attitude is concerned with prolongation - how to prolong life. It is not
concerned with significance. So you can find old people in hospitals,
particularly in the West, just hanging on. They want to die but the culture
won't allow them. They are fed up with just being alive; they are simply
vegetating. There is no significance, no meaning, no poetry, because everything
has disappeared, and they are a burden to themselves. They are asking for euthanasia
but society does not allow it. Society is so afraid of death that it does not
allow death even for people who are ready to die.
The very word 'death' is a
taboo word, more taboo than sex. Sex has by and by become almost accepted. Now
death also needs a Freud to make it by and by accepted. Now death also needs a
Freud to make it accepted so that it is no longer a taboo and people can talk
about it and share their experiences about it. Then there is no need to hide it
and there is no need to force people to live against themselves. In hospitals,
in old people's homes, people are simply hanging on because the society, the
culture, the law, won't allow them to be.
If they ask that they should be
allowed to die, it looks as if they are asking for suicide.
They are not asking for
suicide. In fact, they have become dead corpses; they are a living suicide and
they are asking to be rid of it. The length is not the meaning. How long you
live is not the point - how deep you live, how intensely you live, how totally
you live - the quality - is.
Science is concerned about
quantity; religion is concerned about quality. Religion is concerned with the
art of how to live life and how to die life. Seven years, seventy years or
seven hundred years - what difference will it make? You will go on repeating
the same vicious circle again and again and again. You will simply get more and
more bored.
So change the focus of your
being. Learn how to live each moment and learn how to die each moment. Both are
together. If you know how to die each moment, you will be able to live each
moment - fresh, young, virgin. Die to the past. Don't allow it to interfere
with your present. The moment you have passed it, let it be no longer there. It
is no longer there; it only goes on in your memory, it is just a remembrance.
Let this remembrance also be released. This psychological hang-up should not be
allowed.
I am not saying that you should
forget everything that you know. I am not saying that all memory is bad. It has
technical uses. You have to know how to drive, you have to know where your home
is, you have to recognize your wife and your children. But those are not
psychological hang-ups. When you come home of course you recognize that this is
your wife. This is factual memory - useful, enhances life, facilitates it. But
if you come home and you look at your wife with all the past experiences with
her, then that is a psychological hang-up. Yesterday she was angry... now again
you look with that memory in-between; your eyes are clouded by that memory. The
day before yesterday she was sad or nasty and nagging - now if you look through
all these psychological impressions then you are not looking at the woman who
is right now standing in front of you. You are looking at someone who is not there
you are seeing someone who doesn't exist, you are looking at a ghost - she is
not your wife. And she may also be looking at you in the same way.
So ghosts meet, and realities
remain separate; ghosts are married, and realities are divorced. Then these two
ghosts will make love, these two ghosts will fight, quarrel, and do a thousand
and one things, and the realities will be far, far away. There will be no
contact; realities will not have any connection. Then there can be no
communication, there can be no dialogue. Only realities can love. Ghosts can
only make impotent gestures - movements, but with no life in them.
Drop the past each moment.
Remember to drop it. Just as you clean your house every morning, every moment
clean your inner house of the past. All psychological memories have to be
dropped. Just keep factual things and your mind will be very, very clean and
clear.
Don't move ahead of yourself
into the future because that is not possible to do. The future remains unknown;
that is its beauty, that is its grandeur, glory. If it becomes known it will be
useless, because then the whole excitement and the whole surprise will be lost.
Don't expect anything in the
future. Don't corrupt it. Because if all your expectations are fulfilled then
too you will be miserable... because it is your expectation and it is
fulfilled.
You will not be happy about it.
Happiness is possible only through surprise; happiness is possible only when
something happens which you had never expected, when something takes you
completely unawares. If your expectations are fulfilled a hundred per cent, you
will be living as if you are in the past, not in the future. You come home and
you expected your wife to say something and she does. And you expected your
child to behave in a certain way and the child does. Just think - you will be
constantly in boredom. Nothing will happen. Everything will be just a
repetition, as if you are seeing something which you have seen before, hearing
something which you have heard before.
Continuously you will see that
it is a repetition of something. and repetition can never be satisfying. The
new, the novel, the original, is needed.
So if your expectations are
fulfilled. you will remain completely unfulfilled.
And if your expectations are
not fulfilled. then you feel frustrated. Then you feel constantly as if you
propose and God goes on disposing; you feel that God is the enemy; you feel as
if everybody is against you and everybody is working against you. If your
expectations are never fulfilled you will feel frustrated.
Just meditate upon your
expectations: if they are fulfilled you will feel bored, if they are not
fulfilled you will feel cheated. You will feel as if a conspiracy is going on
against you. as if the whole existence is conspiring against you. You will feel
exploited, you will feel rejected, you will not be able to feel at home. And
the whole problem arises because you expect.
Don't go ahead into the future.
Drop expectations.
Once you drop expectations you
have learned how to live. Then everything that happens fulfills you, whatsoever
it is. For one thing, you never feel frustrated because in the first place you
never expected. So frustration is impossible. Frustration is a shadow of
expectation. With the expectation dropped, frustration drops on its own accord.
You cannot frustrate me,
because I never expect anything. Whatsoever you do, I will say, 'Good.' I
always say, 'Good,' except for only a few times when I say, 'Very good.'
Once expectations are not there
you are free to move into the unknown and to accept the unknown - whatsoever it
brings. And to accept it with deep gratitude. Complaints disappear; grumbling
disappears; whatsoever the situation, you always feel accepted, at home. Nobody
is against you, existence is not a conspiracy against you - it is your home.
The second thing: when
everything happens unexpectedly, everything becomes new. It brings a freshness
to your life; a fresh breeze is continuously blowing and it does not allow dust
to gather on you. Your doors and your windows are open: in comes sunshine, in
comes the breeze, in comes the fragrance of flowers - everything unexpected.
You never asked for it, and existence goes on showering it on you. One feels God
Is.
The proposition 'God is', is
not a proposition; it is a statement of someone who has lived unexpectedly,
without any expectations, who has lived in wonder. God is not a logical
hypothesis; it is an exclamation of joy. It is just like, 'Aha!' - It doesn't
mean anything more. It simply means, 'Aha!' so beautiful, so wonderful, so new,
so novel, and beyond anything that you could have dreamed. Yes, life is more
adventurous than any adventure that you can imagine. And life is pregnant,
always pregnant, with the unknown.
Once you expect, everything is
destroyed. Drop the past; that is the way to die each moment. Never plan for
the future; that is the way to allow life to flow through you. And then you
remain in an unfrozen state, flowing. This is what I call a sannyasin - no
past, no future, just at this moment alive, intensely alive, a flame burning
from both the ends, a torch burning from both the ends. This is what let-go is.
Question 2: A short time ago i heard you
say that you saw yourself standing in the marketplace with a bottle of alcohol
in your hand. Today I was refused darshan because alcohol was on my breath.
This is from Vedanta.
What I say and what you hear
are not necessarily the same. My alcohol is my alcohol; your alcohol is your
alcohol. When I am talking about alcohol, I am not talking about your alcohol.
I am talking about the alcohol of Buddhas. Yes, they are drunk - drunk with the
Divine.
But I can understand. You go on
hearing that which you want to hear. You don't hear me; you manipulate. You
manage to hear whatsoever you want to hear. Your unconscious goes on
interfering, it goes on confusing you. Yes, I said that I am in the marketplace
and not only in the marketplace, but with a bottle in my hand. This. is an old
Zen saying.
Zen says that one who has
finally understood himself comes back to the world - and comes completely
drunk. But why a bottle in the hand? The meaning is clear. Not only is he
drunk, he has something to offer to you also. That is the meaning of the bottle
in the hand. If you are ready, he can also make you drunk - he has something to
offer you. It is not only that he is drunk, he can share his drunkenness with
you. Hence the bottle. He has an invitation, an invitation for you. That's why
he has come to the marketplace.
You go to the marketplace to
get something, he has come to the marketplace to give something. He has found
something, and this finding is such that it has to be shared.
Sharing is its intrinsic
nature. You cannot keep your bliss to yourself - it would be like a flower
trying to keep its fragrance to itself or a star trying to keep its light to
itself. It is not possible. When there is light it spreads, it goes to others;
it helps even those who are not even prepared to take its help. The fragrance
disperses into the winds for friends and for foes alike.
Once a man has attained, he has
to share. Not that he has to do something to share; he simply finds himself
sharing because he cannot do otherwise. He moves to the marketplace where
people are - where people are stumbling in darkness, he brings his light to
them; where people are thirsty, he brings his own drunkenness to be shared with
them.
Yes, I am drunk and I have a
bottle in my hand - can't you see it! But it is not your bottle. But people
have an unconscious tendency to hear something which is not said.
I have heard one anecdote.
A cavewoman came running to her
husband in the greatest possible agitation.
'Wok!' she called out.
'Something terrible has just happened. A saber-toothed tiger has just gone into
my mother's cave and she is in there . Do something! Do something!'
Wok looked up from the macedon
drumstick which he was gnawing and said, 'Why should I do I something? What the
devil do I care what happens to a saber-toothed tiger?'
It is not necessarily that you
don't hear that which is said, your unconscious continuously colors whatsoever
you hear, It continuously interprets in its own ways. The words may be the
same, but a slight jerk to the meaning, a slight turning, and everything
changes.
After ten years of marriage, a
man was consulting a marriage counselor.
'When I first married,' he
said, 'I was very happy. When I would come at night, my little dog would race
around barking, and my wife would bring me my slippers. Now, after all these
years, when I come home, my dog brings me my slippers, and my wife barks at
me.'
'What is the complaint?' asked
the counselor. 'You are still getting the same service!'
Yes, the service is the same,
but still, not the same. You may hear my words and you may think the meaning is
the same - it is not. So please be careful. Handle my words very carefully;
they are very delicate. And before you decide what they mean, don't be in a
hurry. Meditate. Otherwise not only will you miss, you may misunderstand, and
not only will my words not be able to help you, they can be harmful.
Question 3: Is it possible for a politician
to be enlightened?
Never heard of it. It has never
happened. There are intrinsic problems. The very dimension the politician moves
in is against enlightenment.
A few things have to be
understood. Politics is a diametrically opposite phenomenon to religion. A
scientist can easily become religious; his approach is different but not
opposite. He may have been working with matter, with the objective world, but
his working is a sort of meditation. He needs a certain space in his
consciousness, a silent space, to work and to discover. It is not very
difficult to move from the objective towards subjectivity because the same
space can be used for the inner journey.
A poet can very easily become
religious - he is very close, very, very close; almost in the neighborhood. A
painter or a sculptor can very easily become religious; they are already
religious, unknowingly. They are already worshippers though they have not yet
worshipped. They may not have thought about God. they may not have consciously
been religious at all, they may not go to the church or to the temple they may
not be concerned with the Bible and the Koran and the Gita - but that is not
the point. A painter goes on seeing something Divine in nature: colors are
Divine for him. A poet goes on feeling something of the religious romance all
around. All creative arts are very closely related - any moment consciousness
can dawn, any ray can become a transformation.
But a politician moves in a
diametrically opposite direction. His whole training is against religion.
I have heard an anecdote:
The Congressman had delivered a
stirring speech against a controversial bill. He was promptly buried in
mountains of mail from back home as constituents wrote condemning his stand.
Next day he was back on his feet in the house, this time making a speech in
favor of the bill. When he finished, a colleague collared him.
'Yesterday,' said the
colleague, 'you made an eloquent explanation of the principles which motivated
your stand. I wonder, what has happened to change your mind?'
'Someday,' said the
Congressman, 'you will learn that there comes a time in every man's life when
he must rise above mere principles.'
A politician is an opportunist;
in fact, he has no principles. He talks about principles, but he has no
principles. He pretends that he has principles but if he is a politician worth
the name, he cannot have any principles. Those principles are just to fool
people. He is on an ego trip. He uses all sorts of principles.
I have heard about one
politician. In an election campaign he was speaking in his constituency. There
was a great controversy about prohibition: about whether alcohol should be
totally prohibited or not. When he was speaking, a man stood up and asked,
'What is your stand on prohibition?'
Now he became a little shaky
because half the population was for it and half was against it. And he could
see that half the crowd was for it and half the crowd was against it.
Whatsoever he said was going to
lose half the votes. It was really difficult. He was in a dilemma.
And then he said, 'You are all
my friends. Please raise their hands those who are in favor and those who are
against.' Half the people raised their hands in favor, and half against.
Then he said, 'Good. I am with
my friends. I am all for my friends. You are all my friends and I am for you.'
Now he is saying neither yes
nor no.
The trip is of the ego: how to
become more powerful, how to control others. Religion is just the opposite. It
is not in any way an ego trip - one has to lose the ego. And one is not trying
to be powerful. In fact, one is trying to understand the total helplessness of
the part against the whole; one is learning how to surrender, not how to
conquer; and one is not concerned with others, one is totally concerned with
himself. If this much is possible, that 'I can become aware of my own being' it
is enough, more than enough.
The politician is concerned
with the outside world, he is an extrovert. The religious person is an
introvert. He is not concerned with things, with the world with situations; he
is concerned with the quality of his consciousness. A religious person is
trying to find out how to be fulfilled; a politician is trying to show to the
world that he is somebody. He may not be fulfilled but he pretends that he is
fulfilled; he has opted for pretensions, hypocrisy. He simply wants the whole
world to know that he is somebody special.
Extraordinary, very happy. Deep
inside he may be carrying a hell but he believes that if he can fool everybody
else, he will be able to fool himself. That dream is never fulfilled.
You can fool everybody else by
smiling a false smile, but how can you fool yourself?
Deep down you know that
everything is getting cold and dead; deep down you know that everything is
empty, in vain. But one goes on thinking, 'If I can convince everybody else
that I am somebody, then somehow I will be able to convince myself that I am
somebody.
The politician is a liar. He's
trying to lie - to himself and to the whole world. The religious dimension is
the dimension of being true, authentic.
Once it happened that a man
entered a bar and said, 'Bartender, I want you to meet my dog. He talks. I will
sell him to you for only ten dollars.'
'Who do you think you are
kidding?' said the bartender.
The dog, tears in his eyes
looked up. 'Please buy me,' he said. 'This man treats me cruelly.
He never gives me a bone. He
never bathes me. He is always kicking me around. And once I was the richest
trick-dog in the country. I performed before presidents and kings.
My name was in the papers every
day, and....'
'So he does talk,' said the
bartender. 'But why sell a valuable dog like that for only ten dollars?'
'Because,' said the customer,
'l hate liars.'
A politician is a liar, and he
is trying to convince himself through convincing others.
A politician is almost mad -
mad for power. Many people are in the madhouses in the world: somebody thinks
he is Adolph Hitler, somebody thinks he is Napoleon, somebody thinks he is Ford
or Mao Tse Tung. They are in the jails, or in the madhouses, or in the
hospitals, because we think they have gone mad. Somebody thinking that he is
Adolph Hitler is thought to be mad, but what about Adolph Hitler himself? The
only difference is this: -this man, this madman who thinks himself to be Adolph
Hitler, has not been able to prove it, that's all. He's innocent. His madness
is just innocence. Adolph Hitler proved to the world that, yes, he is. Adolph
Hitler is more mad than this man. His madness was such that he proved to the
whole world that he was somebody and if he could not create, then he could
destroy.
There are only two
possibilities. you can be a creator, then you feel a certain fulfillment - that
comes to a mother when she gives birth to a child, that comes to a poet when
poetry is born, that comes to a sculptor when he has created something a
beautiful piece in marble, in stone, in wood. Whenever you create something,
you feel enhanced; you reach towards peaks. you get high.
All people who are creative are
close to religion. Religion is the greatest creativity because it is an effort
to give birth to yourself, to become a father and mother to yourself, to be
born again, to be reborn through meditation, through awareness. Poetry is good,
painting is good - but when you give birth to your own consciousness, there is
no comparison. Then you have given birth to the ultimate poetry, the ultimate
music, the ultimate dance. This is the dimension of creativity. On the rung of
creativity, religion is the last. It is the greatest art, the ultimate art -
that's why I call it 'the ultimate alchemy'.
On the opposite end of the
ladder is destruction. People who cannot be creative become destructive because
through destruction they can have a vicarious feeling that they are powerful.
When Hitler destroyed millions of people, of course he had a very powerful
feeling that, 'I am somebody. I can destroy the whole world.' He was almost
ready to destroy the whole world - he had almost destroyed it.
A politician is a destructive
mind. He may talk about the nation, the country; he may talk about utopias,
socialism, communism, but basically a politician is a destructive mind.
And a destructive mind cannot
become enlightened.
First, the whole energy should
move towards Construction, towards creation. Then only is there the possibility
that by and by you participate in the ultimate creation - that is nirvana, the
ultimate creation, in which you are born Divine, infinite, unlimited. Then you
expand, you spread all over existence; then you are no longer a wave, you have
become the ocean.
The politician can never become
enlightened. I am not saying that the politician cannot move towards
enlightenment - he can. But as he moves, he will have to drop politics. A
politician is also a human being, but he will have to drop the politics, and by
the time he comes to meditate he will be no more a politician. Remaining a
politician, a politician cannot become enlightened. But his humanity is there.
Even a Hitler can become a Buddha - some day. One hopes he will. Some day, far
away in the future, even an Adolph Hitler is going to become a Buddha; that is
his potentiality. But then, by that time, he will not be an Adolph Hitler.
Nuclear war had come and gone.
Only one tiny monkey in one isolated part of the world remained alive. After
weeks of wandering about, he finally came across a little female monkey. He
threw his arms around her in greeting.
'I am starved,' he said. 'Have
you found anything to eat?'
'Well,' she said. 'I found this
little old apple.'
'Oh, no, you don't!' he
snapped. 'We are not going to start that all over again!'
Even monkeys are worried about
humanity. And I have heard monkeys talking. They don't believe in Darwin, they
don't say that man has-evolved out of monkeys, they don't think that man is a
developed form - they think man has fallen from the monkeys. Of course - fallen
from the trees, fallen from the height, fallen from the monkeys.
And this is true in a way,
because man has up to now remained political. The whole history up to now has
been political; no civilization has yet existed which has been religious - not
even Indian civilization. Not a single nation has become like a being which is
religious - only rare individuals, here and there, far apart. Somewhere a
Buddha, a Jesus, a Zarathustra, a Lao Tzu - islands. Otherwise, ordinarily, the
main current of humanity has remained political.
Politics is basically ambition.
Politics is basically wrong because ambition is wrong. You are not to become
somebody, says religion, you are already. You are not to become powerful - you
are already. You are extensions of God. You need not be worried about being
powerful and being somebody on a throne; those are all stupid games, childish,
very juvenile, immature. And you cannot find more immature people than
politicians.
In fact, in a better world,
politicians will be kept in madhouses, and mad people will be allowed to move
into the world. Those mad people have not done anything wrong. They may be a
little off the track but they have not been harmful. Politicians are
dangerously mad people, tremendously dangerous.
I have heard that before
Richard Nixon renounced his throne, he called a meeting of his colleagues and
he threatened that he had the power to go into the other room, push a button,
and the whole world could be destroyed in twenty minutes.
And, yes, he had that power.
Millions of atom bombs are ready - a button has just to be pushed. The power of
the atom and H-bombs already made is seven times more than is needed to destroy
this earth - seven times morel We have become so skilled, super- skilled, in
destruction that seven earths of this size could be destroyed. And nobody can
say - any day any president of America, or Soviet Russia, or China, can go mad.
And politicians are almost
mad...any day, anybody can push the button. It is now only a question of
pushing a button. And everybody has mad moments, angry moments. The threat is
very, very real.
Politics has been the disease
of humanity, the cancer of consciousness.
Drop all politics within you.
And remember, when I am talking about politicians, I don't mean particularly
those people who are in politics - I mean all those who are ambitious.
Wherever ambition is, politics
comes in; wherever you are trying to get ahead of somebody, politics comes in;
wherever you are trying to dominate somebody - maybe your wife, or your husband
- politics comes in. Politics is a very common disease, like the common cold.
Question 4: Since I have been here, I have
lost my ability to concentrate. It is hard for me to utter a logical sentence.
And I have become very forgetful. I feel myself as a stupid child. Is that the
way to me intelligence you talk about?
The ability to concentrate is
not something to feel blessed about. It is a frozen state of mind, a very
narrow state of mind. Useful, of course, useful - for others. Useful in
scientific inquiry, useful in business, useful in the market, useful in
politics - but absolutely useless for yourself. If you become too attuned with
concentration you will become very, very tense. Concentration is a tense state
of mind; you will never be relaxed. Concentration is like a torch, focused, and
consciousness is like a lamp, unfocused.
My whole effort here is to
teach you consciousness, not concentration. And this is the point to be
remembered: if you become conscious, any moment you want to concentrate on a
particular problem, you can. It is not a problem. But if you become too focused
with concentration the vice versa is not true: you cannot relax. A relaxed mind
can always concentrate. easily, there is no trouble about it. But a focused
mind becomes obsessed.
Narrow. It is not easy for it
to relax and leave the tension. It remains tense.
If you meditate. first
concentration will disappear and you will be feeling a little at a loss.
But if you go on, by and by you
will attain to an unfocused state of light - that's what meditation is. Once
meditation is attained. concentration is child's play - whenever you need to,
you can concentrate. There will be no problem about it and it will be easy and
without any tension.
Right now, you are being used
by society. Society wants efficient people. It is not worried about your soul,
it is worried about your productivity. I am not worried about your
productivity: man has already too much, more than he can enjoy - there is no need
to go on producing more. Now there is more need to play around more and there
is more need to be more conscious. Science has developed enough. Now,
whatsoever science is doing is almost futile. Now, going to the moon is simply
useless. But tremendous energy is wasted. Why? Because scientists are now
obsessed - they have to do something. They have learned a trick of
concentration and they have to do something. They have to produce, they have to
go on producing something - they cannot relax. They will go to the moon, they
will go to Mars, and they will persuade people that whatsoever they are doing
is tremendously important. It is absolutely useless. But this happens.
Once you become trained in a
certain thing, you go on in that line, blind, unless a cul de sac comes and you
cannot go on anymore. But life is infinite. There comes no cul de sac.
You can go on and on and on.
And now scientific activity has
almost become ridiculous.
Religious activity is totally
different. It is not worried about being more efficient; the whole point is how
to be more joyful, how to be more celebrating. So if you 90 with me, by and by,
concentration will relax. And in the beginning you will feel afraid because you
will see your skill disappearing, your efficiency disappearing. You will feel
you are losing something that you have gained with so much effort. In the
beginning it will happen. The ice is melting and becoming water. The ice was
solid, something concentrated; now it is water - loose, relaxed, flowing in all
directions. But anytime you need ice, the water can be turned into ice again.
There is no problem - just a little more cooling is needed.
This is my own experience.
Whatsoever I say, I say from my own experience - the same has happened to me.
First, concentration disappeared; but now I can concentrate on anything. There
is no problem. But I don't remain in concentration; I can concentrate and relax
- whenever the need arises. Just as whenever the need arises, you walk; you
don't sit on the chair and go on moving your Legs. There are a few people who
go on moving because they cannot sit relaxed - you will call this man restless!
Legs in perfect order are
needed so that whenever you need to, you can walk, you can run. But when there
Is no need, you can relax, and the legs will no longer be functioning.
But your concentration has
become almost as focused as if you are continuously preparing for an Olympic!
Runners in an Olympic cannot relax. They have to run a particular amount every
morning and evening; they are continuously on the go. If they relax for a few
days they will lose their skill. But I call all Olympics political, ambitious,
foolish. There is no need.
Competition is foolish. There
is no need. If you enjoy running - perfectly good. Run. and enjoy. But why
compete? What is the point of competition? Competition brings illness,
unhealthiness; competition brings jealousy, and a thousand and one diseases.
Meditation will allow you to
concentrate whenever the need arises, but if there is no need you will remain
relaxed, flowing in all directions like water.
It is hard for me to utter a
logical sentence.
Feel blissful, blessed. What is
the point of uttering logical sentences! Utter nonsense; make sounds,
gibberish, like birds... Like trees! (At this moment a nearby tree decided,
with the help of a passing breeze, to illustrate Osho's words by shaking its
branches and causing hundreds of leaves to fall with loud rustling sounds to
the ground.) Look! This way! Is this logical? The tree is enjoying. Delighting.
Simply shedding away the past.
Delight. Sing. Utter sounds.
Forget all logic! And by and by you will become more alive.
Less logical of course that is
the price one has to pay - but you become dead if you become more logical and
you become more alive if you become less logical.
Life is the goal, not logic.
What are you going to do with logic? If you are hungry, logic is not going to
feed you; if you need love, logic is not going to hug you; if you are thirsty,
logic will tell you that water is H20! It is not going to give you water, real
water. No. It simply functions in formulas, maxims.
Look at life, and by and by you
will understand that life has its own very logical logic. Be attuned to it and
that will become the door for your ecstasy, samadhi, nirvana.
And I have become very
forgetful.
Perfectly good! If you can
forget, you will be able to remember more. Forgetfulness is a great capacity -
it simply means getting the past dusted off. There is no need to remember
everything that happens because almost ninety-nine per cent of it is trivia.
What do you go on remembering?
Just think... what do you go on
remembering? Write it down and just look at it. It is trivia.
What goes on in your mind? You
will not be able to show it to your intimate friend because he will think you are
mad. This goes on in your mind?
It is good. Forget.
Forgetfulness is a great capacity because it will allow you to remember. It is
part of remembrance. The useless has to be forgotten so that the useful is
remembered - and the useful is very, very small, the useless i5 too much. In
twenty-four hours, millions of bits of information are collected by the mind.
If you collect them and remember them all, you will be mad.
I have heard about a man. He
was once presented to the Governor-General in India because he was a man of
rare memory. He knew only one language, Rajasthani-Hindi. He was a poor man,
uneducated, but if you told him anything in any language, he would never forget
it. But he would repeat it like a parrot, not knowing what it meant.
To the Governor-General's
palace he was called, and the Governor-General was surprised to hear about his
capacity. Thirty other persons were called, and in thirty languages they
uttered a few sentences. It was arranged in the following manner: the man would
go to the first person, and the first person would say the first word of his
sentence. Then he would go to another person and he would say the first word of
his sentence, in another language. Then he will go to the third. In this way he
would go to thirty people. Then he would come back to the first who would now
say his second word. This was repeated - many rounds, many hours it took. And
then he repeated all the sentences separately.
The Governor-General was simply
puzzled. He could not believe it.
But this man went mad.
This much memory is dangerous.
This type of person is almost always idiotic.
Too much memory is not a good
sign; it simply says that you have a very mechanical mind. It is not a sign of
intelligence. Hence you hear so many stories of absent- mindedness about great
scientists, philosophers. They are people of great memory, and great
intelligence has nothing to do with great memory. Memory is mechanical,
intelligence is non-mechanical - they are totally different.
So don't be worried. It is
good. The memory is relaxing, many things will disappear, space will be created
in you. And in that space you will be able to become more brilliant, more
intelligent, more understanding. Intelligence means understanding; memory means
a quality, a mechanical quality of repetition. Parrots have good memories.
Don't be worried about your memory. In the beginning it happens: you have
accumulated much rubbish and when you meditate that rubbish starts
disappearing, falling away.
And I feel myself a stupid
child.
That is the way, the way to the
kingdom of God. Lao Tzu says, 'Be like an idiot in this world so that you can
understand the illogical ways of Tao.' Jesus says, 'Be like a child - because
only those who are like children will be able to enter into the kingdom of
God.'
Don't be worried about those
things; the non-essential is dropping away. Feel happy and grateful. Once the
rubbish has dropped, the real will arise; non-essential gone, the essential
will arise. This is the way to reach to one's own source.
But many times you will get
scared because you are losing your grip on what you have valued up till now.
But I can tell you only one thing: I have traveled the same path and have
passed through the same phases. They are phases - they come and go. And your consciousness
will become more and more purified, virgin - pure, uncorrupted. That
uncorrupted consciousness is God.